Nell, “ So what if we allow it to happen to us, whether good or bad, neutral or meh? What if we allow it to wash over us, notice it, hold our heart’s hand and comfort its sadness at it, but allow it to permeate all of us.” There has been a change in my life that has caused such a rift in my heart that I keep pushing it away. Denying the brokenness of it, trying to move forward without coming to grips with it.
After reading this part of your post, I stepped out from the bubble of denial. I sat with myself, let it come on in, acknowledging the changes I have been avoiding and just felt deflated. But, also for the first time in months I also felt more like my true self than I have in all those months.
Oh my goodness! Wrote this one down: "So if change is inevitable and I can breathe through it like a Bradly Method contraction, what will that do? Probably open the pores of my heart up. Probably allow me to feel it more and sit in the feelings of it better. Probably free me from fear of change." Free me from the fear of change... I want to be there. Another spot-on, beautifully written essay, Nell. Thank you.
Nell, “ So what if we allow it to happen to us, whether good or bad, neutral or meh? What if we allow it to wash over us, notice it, hold our heart’s hand and comfort its sadness at it, but allow it to permeate all of us.” There has been a change in my life that has caused such a rift in my heart that I keep pushing it away. Denying the brokenness of it, trying to move forward without coming to grips with it.
After reading this part of your post, I stepped out from the bubble of denial. I sat with myself, let it come on in, acknowledging the changes I have been avoiding and just felt deflated. But, also for the first time in months I also felt more like my true self than I have in all those months.
Thanks Nell. Here’s to change.
Oh my goodness! Wrote this one down: "So if change is inevitable and I can breathe through it like a Bradly Method contraction, what will that do? Probably open the pores of my heart up. Probably allow me to feel it more and sit in the feelings of it better. Probably free me from fear of change." Free me from the fear of change... I want to be there. Another spot-on, beautifully written essay, Nell. Thank you.